I joined the forum recently after lurking for a short while reading and learning, I found Endmyopia in early 2018 but lacked the determination to actually do it, needless to say I regret not going through with it back then because it could’ve been possible that I would’ve been 20/20 or at least close by now.
Anyway my story starts similar to a lot of people but even though I noticed a bit of blurriness in the distance in about third grade I decided to ignore it, I saw it in my friends, whenever they got glasses they got stronger glasses every year, I feared having to become dependent on them and in all honestly I could see fine, I sat at the back of the class throughout most of the school years, it only became a problem with whiteboards in late high school and over time at that point my myopia slowly got worse because I was doing close up most of the time, in any case I still resisted them and have all the way till now which I’m 24 (25 in a month or so), over the years I’ve looked up natural eye improvement methods and I came across the usual stuff that aren’t worth mentioning until Endmyopia, the main thing that made me believe it aside from the scientific studies and testimonials of members that are actually active and aren’t for all I know a completely made up Photoshop story is that I found active focus prior to finding Endmyopia, I recall instances where I realized that if I stare at something for a while it can clear up, a license plate that was too blurry to read suddenly became almost perfectly sharp and I could confidently read it, so I didn’t go through having to find it, I just had to realize that it’s not a bad thing, I figured that due to the stinging and tearing it’s a harmful act.
Around 5 years ago I got my eyes checked as I feared my eyesight is too bad for driving and I got a prescription of OS: -1.00 Sph -0.75 Cyl 80° and OD: -1.25 Sph -0.25 Cyl 80°, the ophthalmologist told me that I basically have to wear them all the time and it’s genetic and it is what it is, I’m too hardheaded to just accept what’s told to me as a fact even by someone who’s a professional so I didn’t even bother getting them (not necessarily the best idea maybe), I did eventually get my drivers license but I’m not irresponsible so I don’t drive, at least for now. I suppose I’m the odd case of having none lens induced astigmatism, I’m not just going off of that old prescription as I noticed it myself and measured it, albeit with questionable accuracy.
I’m one to have developed bad habits over time, I developed spine issues over time because of poor posture while sitting and lying down which led to scoliosis, I got therapy for that two years ago luckily and it’s all gone, funny that it’s also a condition that many doctors would simply tell you that it can’t be reversed and you can only get surgery for it or get bracing, I did neither, I was lucky to find a chiropractor who knew what she was doing, so that’s another experience that led me to believe in being able to reverse myopia and that the solution isn’t just what medical science approves.
I believe there’s correlation between the scoliosis I had and my astigmatism based on Elliot B. Forrest’s theory, I used to lay down on my right side, have my head tilted resting on my right hand’s palm while supporting my upper body with my elbow, definitely not comfortable anymore as my spine isn’t in favor of that position now, I read a lot this way, browsed the internet or played videogames, it seems to match up with the axis of the astigmatism as well and also the strength being stronger in my left eye that has to turn over more to look at the screen or book.
The Actual Start from December 2020:
After being fed up with this and months of contemplation I decided that it’s not worth it to let this endure, I should either seriously try to correct it or just accept glasses or contacts as part of my life from now on, I still can’t stomach it so I finally started, a few weeks prior I tried to hold smaller screens further away, limited social media usage and with those out of the way I started implementing breaks in December and a few days in started measuring and keeping a log, a few days of measuring in I noticed that my measurements at night aren’t significantly lower like the first days, for example my first day’s measurement is: LE: 55 - 37 and RE: 62 - 55 while on day 7 it’s LE: 59 - 57 and RE:69 - 64, the first number being measured early when I wake up and second before sleep, I don’t trust my early numbers a lot as I did it with my phone and it was awkward to hold the measuring tape in place properly, but the measurement aside I did feel and see it too, something that looked pretty blurry at night compared to day looked more or less the same, a bit worse but that can simply be poorer lighting and tired eyes (not a lot of ciliary spasm like before), a short while later and thanks to Varakari’s vision log tool I realized the distance I’m measuring is to when the astigmatic blur starts, the actual myopia blur is further around 1 meter, I haven’t gotten my eyes checked recently but chances are my myopia hasn’t progressed much or at all since the last one, I’m not overly surprised as I never wore lenses so I don’t have a case of lens induced myopia but what worries me is the astigmatism, I measured it myself to roughly OD: -0.33 Cyl and OS: -0.67 Cyl a few days ago, the axis of my left eye is 80 degrees but my right eye isn’t 80, it’s almost mirrored, I’ll explain more on why I think that’s the case later in a separate post.
I’ve measured progress since I started, a few centimeters go up each week (2-3 seems about normal and I’m okay with it), my latest measurements with the endmyopia calculator put me at LE: 69 and RE: 81, around two weeks ago I was measuring around LE: 63 and RE: 74, I do feel like I see more stuff but I doubt myself a lot, I get lower numbers with the vision log tool but they’ve been following the trend of the endmyopia calculator more or less. My most recent reading on the snellen (3m) is LE: 20/40 line and RE: 20/30 line, I should mention that the line I marked is the line I can barely read, the more readable line is one above these so more like LE: 20/50 and RE: 20/40, a few weeks ago when I tested early on I recall barely being able to read 20/50 with my left and 20/40 with my right eye so I assume I can base the little bit of improvement that’s measurable in cm to be consistent with that, interested to see if I can get my “barely readable” line down again and see if the other lines look better than before.
As of now I wear no correction at any time which I know isn’t a good idea but ideally I want to see if I can resolve my astigmatism at least to some degree on my own, I’d rather avoid a complex prescription right off the bat that’ll make it hard for me to decide which decision to go with reductions, I can do active focus well during the day, it’s become easier to do and I can hold it longer, I don’t get much of the tearing and stinging anymore and don’t have to do weird stuff with my eyes as much, though I tend to blink a tiny bit harder than a normal blink and widen my eyes to get it more easily, other times I can get it by just staring and rocking my head or body a bit, seems like the movement makes depth perception easier and my visual cortex figures out the depth better and tries to adjust, whatever’s going on I’m not sure, what I do know is that I want this to happen, I’m being consistent with good habits, I still do a lot of close up but I make sure I never sit for more than one hour and if I let it drag on that long I take a longer break (15 minutes or so if possible, sometimes even more), I don’t use my phone as much as before either, I’m still really early into this so I have to have more logs, experience and knowledge to gauge what’s going on.
For the time being if anyone actually read all of this thank you, I’m glad there’s an active community for this, not just for the knowledge shared but also the much needed encouragement to go through with this, it’s definitely tough and it’s hard to see much or any progress a lot of the time, I’m still doubting if anything has changed at all since I started, kinda funny that my recent memories of (wow I can see this without trying now) are already filled with doubt, I know that if what I felt I saw is real the experience will happen again and again until I feel less like I’m fooling myself.